Good stuff!

I haven't written anything for a week or so, basically I haven't had anything very exciting to write about! I'm still kind of in that situation.
Yesterday I had my external fixator removed from my right arm, and during removal I was not totally knocked out as I was when they put it on. The put me in something they called a twilight sleep, which was it knocked me out for about 10 minutes. That is some good drugs. I don't even remember getting sleepy, I was just out. The next thing I remember I felt like I was on a ride at an amusement park and my right arm was very warm! (warm from the plaster splint) After that I just couldn't stop talking. I'm not even sure what I was saying. I just wanted to talk! What ever they gave me, was good stuff!

Grieving

It has been a little while since I have posted anything. The main reason for that is, that since I have gotten home, I have hit a new level of grieving. I knew this was coming and there is nothing you can do but face it. I know I'm not the only one who has ever been through this, in fact I'm pretty sure we all go through this sometime in our life.
I've decided one thing that has been missing from my life since coming back from California this month (besides the obvious family), is laughter. The last few nights I have stayed up way past my normal bedtime and watched Leno & Letterman! It has not cured all of my ills, but it has felt very good to laugh! So I guess I'm going to change my sleep schedule.
I did have a situation that was very hard for me today. I finally got around to going to our mobile phone company and dealing with turning off a phone and changing the contract into my name. That went fine no problem. In our plan we were able to have five favorite numbers that you can call that will not go against your every where minutes in the plan. Well I'm sure you have guessed by now Beck and I each had each other in our favorites, and I had to delete her from my favorites. I also I removed her from my phone book. Symbolically it felt as I was just getting rid of her, tossing her to the side, In my heart and head I know this will never be possible. I am OK. I just had to vent a bit. I will be back to my old self before you know it! sorry for the lack of yuks.

Tonights Dinner

Tonights last supper in California was "In and Out burger". If I could start a franchise in Ohio, I think I could make a mint, though I think I have found what I'm going to do when I grow up!

Beck's birthday!

Today would have been Beck's 50th birthday. I try not to dwell too much on the sadness of the last few months. Here is a picture with Beck and Gracie, and Gracie seems to be saying with her eyes "My Grandmas kind of nuts about me" which was true!

Sunshine!

This post is in the same vein as Kathy's last post. I have been able to take advantage of something you don't see a lot of in northeast Ohio in March, and that is sunshine. I spent yesterday sitting in Kathy and Jim's backyard reading and trying to get some color in my lily white legs. There is something theraputic about the warm sun that lightens your heart and makes things seem just a bit more bearable. It was like I had my battery recharged. I think it was one of those spiritual moments where I was being reminded of the seasons and how are life is patterned after them. Anyway, thank goodness for the sun and what it can do for the soul!

The D word was mentioned today

As I was reading the paper today I noticed that the news people and major newspapers were saying we might be in a depression, not the "Great depression" , but that still has the D word which sends shivers down the spine of anyone who lived during the depression times. My brother and sister and I were products of the great prosperity that came after world war II. Which vaulted us out of the depression!

I know with all the talk of high unemployment, Bad housing markets, major companies having major financial crisis's. It's hard to look at your own personel situation and not feel that the D word isn't closing in on you.

I'm thinking me out selling pencils to the rest of mankind in a similar situation as mine is not going to help much. I know for sure standing in a soup line will not get that big D off my back! I think a couple of PROZACS would help in kind of a masking way, but would just delay dealing with things that need to be dealt with! I still would like to find that school where it snows everyday. and it is up hill on the way to the school, and up hill on the way home from school.

I guess I'm just trying to say we live in scarey times. One thing we do have is we have each other. If we can keep in prespective what absouloutly we have to have to live and be able resist the things are not necessary, we will be fine.

Unlike Rush Linbaugh, I hope Presidents Obamba's financial policies work. If they don't work, We in the various levels of the middle class are going to really pay! Some nice words to think about as you try and get some sleep tonight.