It has been a little while since I have posted anything. The main reason for that is, that since I have gotten home, I have hit a new level of grieving. I knew this was coming and there is nothing you can do but face it. I know I'm not the only one who has ever been through this, in fact I'm pretty sure we all go through this sometime in our life.
I've decided one thing that has been missing from my life since coming back from California this month (besides the obvious family), is laughter. The last few nights I have stayed up way past my normal bedtime and watched Leno & Letterman! It has not cured all of my ills, but it has felt very good to laugh! So I guess I'm going to change my sleep schedule.
I did have a situation that was very hard for me today. I finally got around to going to our mobile phone company and dealing with turning off a phone and changing the contract into my name. That went fine no problem. In our plan we were able to have five favorite numbers that you can call that will not go against your every where minutes in the plan. Well I'm sure you have guessed by now Beck and I each had each other in our favorites, and I had to delete her from my favorites. I also I removed her from my phone book. Symbolically it felt as I was just getting rid of her, tossing her to the side, In my heart and head I know this will never be possible. I am OK. I just had to vent a bit. I will be back to my old self before you know it! sorry for the lack of yuks.
I've decided one thing that has been missing from my life since coming back from California this month (besides the obvious family), is laughter. The last few nights I have stayed up way past my normal bedtime and watched Leno & Letterman! It has not cured all of my ills, but it has felt very good to laugh! So I guess I'm going to change my sleep schedule.
I did have a situation that was very hard for me today. I finally got around to going to our mobile phone company and dealing with turning off a phone and changing the contract into my name. That went fine no problem. In our plan we were able to have five favorite numbers that you can call that will not go against your every where minutes in the plan. Well I'm sure you have guessed by now Beck and I each had each other in our favorites, and I had to delete her from my favorites. I also I removed her from my phone book. Symbolically it felt as I was just getting rid of her, tossing her to the side, In my heart and head I know this will never be possible. I am OK. I just had to vent a bit. I will be back to my old self before you know it! sorry for the lack of yuks.
Scott, I know that was hard to post but we appreciate your letting us know when things are hard for you. I hope you don't have too many of those tough things left to do - I imagine it's hard enough just getting through the hours. BTW, I'm sure it's occurred to you that you won't have to adjust your sleep schedule to get your Leno/Letterman fixes - DVR!!! Love you.
ReplyDeleteI know it's rough for you and we want you to know we are here for, even if it's to lend an ear. Love you
ReplyDeleteThanks guys. I set up the DVR today! love you 2
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